So I got my package on Wednesday and can I just say that I was very happy! This was my first round directly but second indirectly. I was a little disappointed at first to be in a domestic trade BUT getting someone from across the country made it fun anyways!! I hope she loved my stuff as much as I loved hers :) Oh btw my package was fromelizadeath
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So my birthday is coming up within the month and I have a wishlist that I am posting only so I can remember to tell my parents.

-Kitchen Theater season tickets, or something like it.
-Border's gift card
- Target/Walmart gift card

This way I can get the things I want not be asking for cash and still make sure I can but it myself. I may update this list as things come to mind.

For those friends of mine at Wells you may remember all the coloring pages I printed out last year and hung up around my room. Well those wonderful drawings (which some of you yourselves printed out) were drawm by my amazing friend Maggie. Of you could be a dear and go on this website and say how fabu her tee is that would be stellar. As of five minutes ago the scoring option was not yet available, but if you would bookmark and check back like everyday and vote that would be chill. <3 -Me

http://www.threadless.com/submission/134430/Deelish?streetteam=Maggiemaemary12

Okay so I suck and cannot get that to be a link but copy and paste in your browser and it should work

I am the biggest ass in the entire world I switch from not trusting anyone then I spill my guts in attempts to be honest and then I get hurt every fucking time.

"I am just worried is all. I don't know how to let her know how scared i am for her because i don't think she will listen or care. I really do care about her more then she will ever know. I just hate seeing this person fall back in to her deep hole. It is frighting to watch and even more scary to know i am powerless. Also to answer the big question from tonight this is the person it is in reference too"

Oh look I get a paragraph of concern in Laura's livejournal. Oh darn. You know I don't know if I should feel happy that she worries or that I offended that she is saying I am falling into a deep hole. Whatever people piss me off.


I haven't spoken to Robert in a civil I love you best friend way since Sunday night, and I haven't spoken to him for more than three seconds since Tuesday. I know that probably sounds like I am exaggerating but I talk to him every day like every fucking day. The sadest part is if this falls apart we didn't even make it to two years. Again I know that makes it sound like we were going out but you know what I mean or should. It is just driving me crazy, I want to call because he isn't online but at the same time I want to give him time and space if that might be what he needs. I am lost a bit and still pretty depressed and kind of sick and ugh!!

I hate unapproved nicknames don't call me anything unless you are going to call me it to my face. So just shut up already.

Create your own Friend Test here


There are no trick questions this time, and I think it is more common knowledge stuff, so you should all do well... if you get bored and want to take it that is.

So my bestest friend Robert calls the other day asking me if I am coming home for Easter, and well I wasn't planning on it but with recent event taken into account I am going to take the trip. I am going to take a bus from Ithaca to Long Island leaving Ithaca at 12:40 on Friday and coming back sometime early Monday. Thing is Gavin and Robert are the only ones who know this plan of mine, so I don't know how it is going to go. I mean Robert's mom will most likely be able to pick me up at the bus station and I will spend some time with him Friday night or just go straight home and do the surprising part. But for Easter I don't know what is going on last year my parents went to my aunt's house and I went with Robert to his grandparent's this year my family doesn't want to go to my aunt's. I think they were actually planning on driving upstate to my uncle's house and asking me to meet them down there. (It is about half way between here and home.) That is why I told Gavin I was coming home so he could try and hinder that plan. And umm... I kind of lost my train of thought so let's leave it at that.

Today is birthday day. So Happy Birthday to the many many October 30th birthdays.

I have named my room THE HOT SPOT yeah you read that right. I am just that cool like seriously people I am sure you are al thinking shannon cool? no way but it is true. People are in my room practically 24/7. So every friday and saturday night we are open for business so let me tell you what it says on my dry erase board right now. "Tonight (Friday) and Tomorrow (Saturday) the HOT SPOT will be open for business feel free to stop by with snacks, dvds, cds, or just conversation and yourself we eagerly await your appearances" See I did it to be funny but the thing is I have people coming up to me asking what time they can stop by and what snacks I like and everything its awesome. Well that is my only update for now oh and guess what else dudettes I have like handed in everything on time and the thing is not even done late at night. I have been doing everything right after its assigned like right after cool huh?

ttyl -Shannon

Can you believe it to me it feels that it was only weeks ago that I told you all I was going to Kellenberg and now tomorrow morning I leave for college. I will miss you all even though I never see you. I cannot believe that this chapter of life has to be closed. Robert if you read this or anything on here know I miss you and no matter what happens between us I have been changed and saved and I am forever grateful.

I noticed at least two of you read my last entry and so I am going to post this one and if at least one of you reads it you can tell the rest. June I am going with the 23rd right now if that is too late in the month just tell me. Nothing fancy just sorta what Maggie had going on last year at her house a bbq in the back, music and friends or whatever. People that I have on the mind right now would be Maggie, Amy, Kyla, Jessica, Sam, Carol, Ashley, Carissa?, and anyone else I may be forgetting. All these people do not however have livejournals so I am leaving it in the hands of those who do and I will post this on myspace as well i guess. So that is that please as much as we have grown apart and dont see each other I think one last night would be fine with everyone would it not?

Well all is well in Shannonville although I know at this point in time I am honestly only writing to myself. That is perfectly fine with me however because I am ready to move on and although I will always remember yall moving on isnt necessarily a bad thing. So here it is in green on green I am old. Well not really but in my own head 17 and going to college on August 19! I ahve been looking foward to that day but not knowing it would be that day or knowing where I would be going for years. I graduate on June 4 which is in standard time ridiculously close. I am thinking of throwing some sort of graduation or something party simply as a last time to see all of you pretty much ever ya know, just one last time with all of us girls. If anyone does read this which I doubt will be done but if anyone does give me some dates in June that you aren't swamped with studying or what not and I will get us all together for one last hooray to sound really lame. I have four more days of school even though we do not graduate until June and my four days are only three hours each because it is simply come in take a test and leave. I have had two and I am presently at school waiting until I can take my bus home seeing as I can't drive and even if I could don't have a car. So right my mind is slightly unfocused lately but I felt like talking it out with I guess myself but whatever. I am ready for awhile now I was worried about losing touch with all the friends I have made in the last four years I missed yall for a long time there too. And I am not saying that I dont still think about all of you but I dont cry anymore I dont get upset, beacause I know that you have all influenced the person that I have become is because all of you so thank you and i will dearly miss you all in my life adventures. My birthdays make me remember Jessica trombones and smiles and hair dye make me remember Maggie temple and anything jewish to be honest remind me of Kyla and all the great times that I had with each and everyone one of you at girlscouts back in the day are always on my mind. You were the first group of people who embraced me for what I was and helped me through some bad times, and for that I am eternally grateful. So if we dont see each other thank you and good luck.

So many reasons to hate people and yet so little time to state why....




Okay just kidding I really do not hate people, no seriously I don't, but I do get really pissed of at lots of people lots of the time. But most of them know that I don't like them so it all works out in the end. However recently I have been what I guess would be described as a time bomb of sorts, an emotional time bomb. For that I am sorry if it affected any of you which I am not entirely sure it did or didn't. Anyways I know that there are some of you who may think that I am I don't know but yeah depressed or any crap like that don't worry I am not. The truth of the matter is that I am ridiculously frustrated and confused with life right about now. I really just want someone to help me through the torment that my brain is putting me through. Literally I just want to feel safe, you know like you do sitting with your parents when you are little and you feel nothing can touch you. I want that, I want someone else to help me with the major life decisions that I have to make. I want someone to help me because I still feel like a little kid inside and I really just don't know what to do anymore.


I guess that was all a bit pointless seeing as who here is really going to read it and care anyway but I felt like letting it out somewhere

Okay I posted that random boring survey crap before well, actually I didn't because my computer was being stupid. But thing is I just wanted to alert the world that I have been accepted to four out of my eight schools. Unfortunately my average was only an 81 and I probably won't get into the other four but at least it helps narrow teh search. Gotta stay positive or I will jump off a building. Well anyways if any of you take the time to read any of those survey things you may already know this but if not... I miss the heck out of you guys and want to see yall anytime anyplace name it I'll be there. But yeah I doubt anyone will read this and if they do I doubt anyone will go oh yeah Shanno lets invite her the next time we hang out. Anyways just throwing it out there.

Later Days.
-Shannon

Survey 1

*January

1. Did you have a new year's resolution this past year? Nope Nope
2. Who kissed you at midnight? No one but does it really matter
3. Where were you at 12:00? Last year my house... this year Bob's house.
4. Do you like hot chocolate? Does anyone not?
5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop? Nope although we were there once on New Year's Eve Day
6. Most memorable moment of January? Maggie's Sweet 16? its the only thing I remember

*February

1. Who was your valentine in 2005? Never had one
2. What did your valentine get you? Didn't have one
3. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class? Yes right up until middle school
4. Stand out event of February: I don't remember February

*March

1. Are you Irish? A big old 75%
2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day? School uniform yeehaa
3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2005? Corn Beef... ugh I hate being Irish
4. Stand out activity from March: Nothing really I don't really remember March either... Kyla's Sweet 16?


*April

1. Do you like the rain? You mean there are people who don't!
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year? Umm my hamster died then was alive then died then was alive but by the end of the day was dead not very funny. All I remember is it was Ashley's Sweet 16 I think.
3. Do you get tons of candy on Easter? Got a bunch ate none of it not to mention Easter was in March this year.
5. Why April rocked: Umm it didn't

*May

1. What's your favorite kind of flower? Tiger lilies and that really pretty one that I don't know the name of (aren't I so specific)
2. Do you like the spring? Yeah
3. What's the best part of May? Gavin's Birthday? I don't know its just a month
4. What was the most important part of May? Finding my bestest best friend ever.

*June

1. What year did/do you graduate from school? 2006 soon omg six months
2. Did you go on any vacations last June? Nope
3. How did you celebrate graduation? Nothing I didn't graduate I could've cared less
4. Best part of June: End of School ... duh

*July

1. What did you do on the 4th of July? I was in Guatemala, we did nothing differently
2. Do you go on any vacations during this month? Guatemala
3. What defines July to you? Biking and friends.
4. What made July great? Guatemala

*August

1. Did you do anything special to end off your summer? Virginia… watching Bob re-learn walking hehehe
2. What was your favorite summer memory of '05? Quitting that god awful catering bus job
3. Do you go swimming a lot in the summer? Normally yes...this summer no Bob's pool the ocean once that's it I think oh and the lake once
4. Do you go to the beach a lot? No
5. Define August in 5 words or less: I quit. It's Almost done

*September

1. Did you attend school in '05? Yes, senior year in High School.
2. Who is your favorite teacher? Mr. Grosser? I unno I don't like my teachers this year.
3. Do you like fall better than summer? No. Maybe if they were both equal but I doubt it
4. Most memorable part of September? Louisiana... dang I almost forgot about that I was about to say nothing.

*October

1. What was your favorite halloween costume ever? My Sweet Sixteen dress that was awesome. Victorian gown thingy.
2. What is your favorite candy? Skittles
3. What did you dress up like this year? Ummm... oh right a Guatemalan
4. Best part of October? My birthday weekend. Shaving cream fight with Alisha and friends and the City. :-)

*November

1. Whose house do you usually go to for thanksgiving? Usually here, but this year my aunt's.
2. Do you like stuffing? Depends.
3. What are you thankful for? I finally get it... all of it.
4. What stands out the most about November? Being lazy in school.

*December

1. Do you celebrate christmas? Yes
2. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe? No
3. What did you want this year for christmas? Mad Gab and a watch... got the watch.
4. What's the best present you ever got for Christmas? My first computer when I was eleven.
5. Do you like cold weather? Love it even though I'm always cold.
6. What were you waiting for the most for this December? Report Cards.


Survey 2

The Year 2005:

[P E O P L E]
1. Best friend? Bob
2. Best boyfriend/girlfriend? None
3. Lost any friends? Perhaps
4. Gained any friends? Uh huh
5. Met a new good friend? Yup Yup

[P L A C E S]
1. Went out of the country? Yup
2. Moved? No
3. New school? Nope
4. How many times on an airplane? 2
5. Road trips? College tours ... wooohoo

[Y O U]
1. Have you changed? Yuh huh
2. New look: No maam
3. Any new additions? No
4. Biggest conflict this year? Steve
5. Most depressed time this year? May-June

[L O V E]
1. Did you fall in love? Not really
2. Did you get heartbroken? No sir
3. Who was your summer love? No one

[S E A S O N S]
1. Favorite Season? Winter
2. Least favorite season? Fall
3. Good birthday? Yup
4. Any snow this year? Yup earlier and a bit sorta recently
5. Highest temperature? I unno


[F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S]
Snuck out- No
Met a person who will change your life- Uh huh
Kept your resolution- Nope
Got arrested- Nope
Had a first something- Yes
Smoked weed/drugs- No
Did anything illegal- I guess
Kissed a boy/girl- Yeah
Had a crush- Yup
Liked someone- Yup
Lost a family member- No
Got bad grades- Yes
Got suspended- No
Moved states- No
Got a myspace- Who didn't
Learned an instrument- Tried to
Started a band- No
Spent over 1 million dollars- Never
Went streaking- Never
Done something you shouldn't have- Yes
Kept a secret- Yup
Told a secret- Yup
Done something you totally regret- Yes
Changed your view on things- Yes


Survey 3

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Umm... leaving the country, having a boyfriend, driving with Mrs. Thompson needless to say I will never drive a mini-van.

2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't really make them, so no.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No.

5. What countries did you visit?
Guatemala.

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
Determination.

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
April 22
The Rehab Addicts show- night at Mena's last time we hung out first and last time I will ever drink
May 4
Start of a lot of things
May 5
Asked out by Steve...a week or so of oddness
May 27
Started being close friends with Bob :-)
July 1-8
Guatemala

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Admitting to myself that I was totally wrong, letting life go as it may. Not stressing over the small stuff.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Failing my parents and myself by lying a lot about school and other stuff.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nope.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Can't really say seeing as I haven't yet seen it but Spamalot tickets... oh or the knife for Bob that was cool.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
I have no idea...

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Mine.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Guatemala, Christmas, Movies.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Guatemala, college for a second there but then it got overshadowed.

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
Shall we Dance from the King and I.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier.
ii. thinner or fatter? thinner actually by like a pund but about the same.
iii. richer or poorer? richer.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Taking the first step. Studying.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Procratinating. Putting myself down.

20. How did you spend Christmas?
My aunt's house and then here with the other side a walk in the rain and back here.

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
Maybe... it is a little unclear.

23. How many one-night stands?
None.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Umm... Go Diego Go or Dora the Explorer oh or Teletubbies...no nothing.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't hate but people that I dislike now hmmm... yeah.

26. What was the best book you read?
Hmmm... I can't even think of things I read this year.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
None, I guess I mean yeah I'd have to say none.

28. What did you want and get?
To go to Guatemala, friend that I can tell anything to.

29. What did you want and not get?
A better relationships with some people. A better attitude, better grades.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Umm...I saw a lot of movies Willy Wonka or Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
City with the best people ever...and Joe. I swear if it wasn't for seeing everyone last year I would say it topped my Sweet Sixteen.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
If I had found a way to carry on the love and interest in school that I hade January-April of last year.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
I'm not much of a fashion person jeans, t-shirt, hoodie, vans.

34. What kept you sane?
My best friends.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
That's easy... absolutely no one.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Umm...I don;t really do politics.

37. Who did you miss?
Hanging out with all my Lynbrook school friends who I only saw at Sweet Sixteen's and may never really see again.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Robert Thompson my favorite person in the world.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005?
Stay True to yourself...don't let others define you.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]
It's gone]
I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I Belong

Is it sad that it's so depressing but it works...


Survey 4

( ) stayed single the whole year.
(x) got your first kiss
(x) kissed someone new
(x) made-out for the first time (not anyway I would ahve wanted it though)
( ) made-out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
(x) kissed in the rain
( ) fell in love
( ) fell in love with a fool
(x) broke someone else's heart
(x) had a stalker
( ) had a good relationship with someone
( ) questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) had a gay marriage
( ) kissed someone of the same sex
( ) dated someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
(x) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under miseltoe

WORK/SCHOOL

( ) got a promotion
( ) got a pay raise
( ) changed jobs
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
( ) got straight A's
(x) met one teacher you really like
(x) met one teacher you really hated
( ) found the subject you love
(x) failed a class (history on progress reports it got a little better though not by much)
( ) cut class
( ) skipped school
( ) got into a fight with a classmate
(x) did something you were proud of
(x) discovered a new talent
( ) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(x) proved yourself an idiot (I think I do this every year to at least one person though)
( ) embarassed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( ) got a PART in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
( ) got sent to the office

OTHER

(x) painted a picture (if my ugly water-color car in art counts)
(x) wrote a poem
( ) ran a mile
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
( ) went to camp
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
(x) laughed till you peed in your pants (not literally but don't we all get that omg I need to pee feeling)
( ) flirted shamelessly
(x) visited a foreign country
(x) visited a foreign state
( ) cooked a disasterous meal
(x) lost something important to you
(x) got a gift you adore
(x) realized something new about yourself
(x) went on a diet
( ) tried to gain weight
(x) dyed your hair
(x) came close to losing your life (self inflicted i guess)
( ) someone close to you died
(x) went to a party
(x) drank alcohol
(x) drank alcohol underage
( ) did (a) drug(s)
(x) got drunk (big mistake trying to save people that to tell you the truth didn't need saving wasn't literally like drunk dunk just a bit woozy)
( ) got arrested
(x) read a great book
(x) saw a great movie
( ) saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
( ) saw your favorite band/artist live
( ) saw someone famous in person
(x) did something you want to tell everyone
( ) enjoyed this year all over

well well well

a lot can change in three weeks

in fact i don't even remember going to work this summer

let alone the vacation i took

only six days before school

i can only think about sweet 16

cough37dayscough

and tests quizzes homeworks

and arg

i miss sleeping late

being able to stay up late

talking to friends and seeing friends

going to amusement parks and

just summer in general


i hope you have all had enough time to really

enjoy sophmore year

the year of the wise fool

the definition of sophmore

no i am not strange for knowing that

we were given a very long speech

i miss the good old days

when i had a blue balzer adn gray skirt

not this grey blazer that is itchy and

this weird blue skirt with and elastic waist


i am sure you all have been busy

i also hope you have all been doing

your work unlike i did all last year

you fortunately don't have the aspect of being thrown out

if for some amazing lightning hit you and you failed




but don't worry you are all geniouses

unlike myself

i love you all not in the literal sense

don't worry i am not gay

and those of you who know about sweet 16s

will hear about it then

how much i love you guys

i hope you are all contemplating

going to roseland but if not

hope to see you on halloween

sorry it had to be a sunday

i couldn't do it any other time





later days
older now
-shannon

i can't believe that tomorrowis my last day of summer

for youi guys it is easy you go back wednesday

six days of school then a four day weekend

i don't get off until colombus day

or something like that

well i wanna go back to school and all

i miss all my friends

they all go away and stuff over summer

so i didn't get to see them

but omg

i hate homework and tests and quizzes

arg

anywho anywhat anywhen anywhere anywhy anyhow




i gotta go do stuff


later days
-shannon